Tired Eyes

I am a little tired so this post will not be a long one. Today was a busy busy day - filled with chatting with friends who are far away and whom I miss, painting (which is always a favorite activity), a baseball game and peach tea. But it is also filled with nervous thoughts. I know in my heart everything will be ok - there's still that lingering thought in my head - The dreaded "what if".
Anyway - everything is going to be fine, I am just a worrier. That's what we do in my family. We stew and we worry.

Goodnight.

Quote of the Day:

luck never gives: it only lends.

-Ancient Chinese Proverb

A change is gonna come

Today was a very fun and relaxing day I must say. I got to spend time with all my favorite little ones and got to swim in the pool and soak up some sun. It's funny how fast they are growing up. The little ones I mean. Even though some of them are not so little anymore and are growing up right in front of my eyes. It makes me feel oh so old. For example, I can remember when the oldest was born. That was almost 8 years ago! Oh how the time has just flown by.
I have also had some sad thoughts today. I am leaving in about 25 days. And yes I am just going to back to school and that's no different, but I am really moving away. Moving into an apartment and embarkin gon my life. I mean it's not like I'm moving far away or anything or that I'm never coming back. It's just different now. This is the last summer I'll be home. No more christmas breaks even at home. It almost brings a tear to my eye. I will miss seeing the little ones grow up day to day, or even month to month. Times are a-changing... yes ma'am. Can you feel it in the wind?
Well this is all I have for now....

Stranger

It's been awhile since I had a real post up so I thought since I have the time now, I should do it while I have the chance.

I have been home for awhile now and when I first got home it was all about the job search. So that took up a lot of my time. However, it seems that the job search was a little bit of a futile quest seeing as though most of the temp agencies didn't seem to have anything for me. They only had temp-hire positions (which obviously wouldn't work because I am moving back up to Fairfax in the middle of July) or they told me I didn't have enough experience. But just when I thought all hope had been lost... Protemps immediately found a job for me. The woman told me it was a temp-hire position but just not to mention that to the client. So I didn't and I assumed that I would be working there for awhile, possibly until I left to go back. But that excitement was short-lived because apparently I was either fired or somehow the client found out that I wasn't going to be there much longer. My theory is that they tried to offer me a full-time position (which they would've had to call the angency first) and then the agency was probably obligated to tell them when I was leaving. Well that is the story that I'm clinging to because, well let's face it, it's a lot easier on the ego to believe that then to just think I was fired. But I must say I was really thrown off by the whole thing - I left the office on Friday and everyone there was saying see you on Monday - and then BAM, don't bother showing up on monday they say. Anyways, now that I have gotten over that and I can rest easier at night, I am still jobless. Sad I know. So I think I'm going to start utting effort into finding a job at school because it's pretty much to late to be worrying about working at home. I only have 26 days left here. There really is no point.

Other than that, life at home proves to be pretty boring. SHOCKING I know. But I keep telling myself that it will be over soon and then the dreams of my fabulous apartment will finally be a reality.

I also wanted to take this chance to post some new paintings that I have finished... Both for my sisters for their birthdays. I like the way they turned out and I think I did ok with matching the concept to the sister. Well I at least tried to create something that would coordinate with their existing home decor. SO without further adieu...

You can also see these on my photo website which is a work in progress at the moment. I'm trying to put a lot of my photos up there so then it is easier to share with the fam and what not. The url for that site is just http://selena170.myphotoalbum.com

In other brief news... I really like Hilary Duff's new cd and especially this song... And if you want to hear the video than just pause the music on the side first.

That is all for now
Check ya later.

Laughing...

This video really makes me laugh... I don't know why, it just does. And I think Graham Norton is hilarious but that's just me.

Sex on the beach... then you woke up!