What?

Ok so is it weird that there is something that I wrote in 6th grade posted on the internet? Without my knowledge mind you. Way weird... right? Yes I think so. You know when you are bored and you google search yourself just to see what comes up? Ok maybe it's just me, but you should do it because you might just find something interesting. Like a story about christmas that you wrote a billion years ago. And I think it's so funny to read it now and be able to see how I was trying to be all smart sounding, and using all these descriptive words. Too funny.

go to this link and my story is on the bottom.... try not to laugh too loud


http://www.ncsu.edu/midlink/holidays/stories.html


I'm ready for our big disappointing loss on ESPN tomorrow... are you?
k buh bye for now.

Say it Right

In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

The Catch

Today was a very happy day..... My classes were good, TL decided that she wants to move in together next year and mmy favorite episode (well one of them) of Sex and the City was on TV tonight... A great way to end the day. So I have posted the end of the episode for all of you out there to enjoy just as much as I do.... And can I say my favorite part is when Miranda gets hit in the head with the bouquet and then Carrie says "Now you're done." Makes me chuckle everytime. So play the first video and the then part 2 is the one under it. K?




and then part 2....





I love it. My favorite show.

Whatev

You Are 44% Girly

You're a little girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie. You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines.

How Girly Are You?

Took this here quiz
True or not...
I don't know. But a good chuckle.

Bad Education

My new favorite band... awesome, no drummer just a girl who tap dances. And they are from Omaha.. too great.

Let Me Cry

So many things to say, but never the right words or enough energy.


What to do, what to do.


I'm just going to let it simmer for a little until I can get my thoughts straight.




She sits alone by a lamppost
Trying to find a thought thats escaped her mind
She says dads the one I love the most
But Stipes' not far behind

She never lets me in
Only tell me wheres shes been
When shes had too much to drink
I say that I dont care I just run my hands
Through her dark hair and then I pray to God
You gotta help me fly away

And just...
Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

This morning I woke up alone
Found a note sitting by the phone
Saying maybe, maybe I'll be back some day
I wanted to look for you
You walked in I didnt know just what I should do
So I sat back down and had a beer and felt sorry for
Myself.

Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

Last night I tried to leave
Cried so much I just
Could not believe
She was the same girl I
Fell in love with long ago
She went in the back to
Get high
I sat down on my couch
And cried
Yelling oh mama please
Help me
Wont you hold my hand.

And
Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

History lesson

What do you do when someone you've known seems to change overnight? Someone you thought you knew so well, just all of a sudden, is different. You think maybe you're the one who is going in the opposite or wrong direction. But I don't think so. I think I've made positive changes, for the most part, as opposed to negative downhill spirals. But what if this person is harming themselves, or completely not acting like themself. (Or at least the self you know to be the true self) Is that a call for us to step in, take a risk and confront it? Because I feel like most of the time, that approach only has 2 outcomes: Bad and Worse. Or is it a matter of how important the relationship is to you? Is it worth the risk? Nobody knows. I know I don't. But sometimes it scares me. Like if I wait too long then something bad will happen, or it will get so out of control, and then I am helpless. Just like when I was little. History repeats itself.

Sometimes I feel like people don't take seriously why I've made the choices I have made in my life. They don't get the urgency or the relevance. It could be because they don't know the whole story. But that's my fault. Or maybe it's because they don't ask, or they don't care to know.

Untitled

I don't know why but lately I have been really sad. I can't really put my finger on it, but it's kind of like I feel like something is missing. And it's so strange because all my life I have been telling myself what I do and do not need and now it's like all that has changed. Is it because I am getting older? Or is it because I am feeling left out? I don't know. Maybe it's because I feel like it's almost there, but not quite. Like it's in my grasp and all I have to do is take and hold it, but I'm too afraid that I will drop it and lose it. Or maybe I'm not seeing what's really there.
I think my confidence level and outside appearence has a lot to do with it. I can't remember the last time I felt comfortable in my own skin. Which ultimmately is my fault. And it's like I don't care enough about myself to change. Like I'm not even worth the effort.
I need a break. I need a break from everything. Why can't life be easy? Instead it's complicated, ridiculous and exhausting.

Sometimes I wish I could just move away and start over.

Boring

My life is boring. I don't even know why I have a blog anymore. I rarely have anything to say and no one even reads it.

But can I just point out that tonight I watched Deal or No Deal for the first time, and before I really didn't get it. And i felt really bad about myself because I felt like if my 7 year old nephew could understand it and like it, then what was my deal? But i get it now, it was like I was watching it and then I had one of those "Debbie Goddin" moments. (you know like it hits you all of a sudden) And then I realized what greg was talking about when he said it was his new favorite show, because I couldn't stop watching it and I was so into it. I was sitting in my room all by myself saying "No deal!" And then I thought to myself... This is sad, this is way sad. I felt like an 80 year old grandma eating her chicken salad sandwich and watching Deal or No Deal. But i love all those game shows, such as jeoperdy, wheel of fortune, family feud and now you can go ahead and add Deal or No freakin deal to the list. I am old. I might as well be shuffling around the apartment in a moo-moo looking for my teeth.

What is wrong with me?

goodnight all.

Lost

Do you ever feel like the life you're living now couldn't possibly really be your life. Like when you dream and then you wake up thinking what happened in your dream really happened. And you wake up either A. disappointed it was just a dream or B. happy that the nightmare you saw is over. Well my life leans more to the B option, except I don't think I have woken up yet. You see sometimes the people that you count on are the ones on which you should never depend. And why is it that everytime you get knocked down, you come back asking for more? Which is fine, I mean everyone does it. At least that's my rationalization for it. But it comes down to how much one person can take before they are worn down to nothing. How much? Too much.


Dark and twisty.

Oh Snaps

amazing. That is all I can say. Beautiful. sigh.

Ellinika

really missing greece today and pretty much every day.... =(

One of the best videos I have ever seen.

Funny, this guy is really into it too, and oh so accurate. Makes me smile everytime I watch it.

These are the times...

I cannot wait for tomorrow... Cinco de Mayo (Olé!) and Lucky Strike is going to be so much fun, mainly because all my favorite people are going. However, at the same time it is a little bittersweet because it means that the year is over and a lot of people are graduating or moving away. So sad. I am going to miss the fun roommate times. Talking until 3 am, making our random jokes, our accents (binci binci), our love of the 80's, and singing/dancing to all our favorite songs. (oh yeah and potbelly) And i'm gonna miss my sibby poo too. Who's ipex am I going to touch if you're not here? i don't know.


Anywhoo, I will miss you guys.

sadness.

My eyes are getting le tired...

nighty night.

One Quick thought before I go to bed.

"There is really nothing more to say - except why. But since why is difficult to handle, one must take refuge in how."

-Toni Morrison



This is a good quote for many reasons and if you know me, then you know what it refers to. Powerful isn't it?
That is all.

That's where it is...

Make her laugh. Pick her up and pretend you're going to throw her in the pool... she'll scream and fight you but secretly, she'll love it. Tell her your secrets. Listen to hers. Call her just to say hi. Hold her hand while you talk. Hold her hand while you drive. Just hold her hand. Look her in the eyes when you talk to her. Protect her. Support her. Tell her stupid jokes. Tickle her, even if she says stop. Slow dance with her. When she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Get her mad, then kiss her. Tease her. Let her tease you back. When you're just laying there together, rub her back. Stay up with her when she's sick. Kiss her forehead. Be faithful. Let her wear your clothes. Kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her, tell her...


a fine quote I must say.



p.s I'm not looking forward to my long day tomorrow. ugh.

I should tell you....

"Trusting desire - Starting to learn
Walking through fire without a burn
Clinging - a shoulder a leap begins
Stinging and older, asleep on pins"
- I Should tell you, RENT


Some people like to pretend that they know me, or they think they know me and they've got me all figured out. Does that make sense? To me it does. I have a lot of things that have gone on in my life and I am working through them, Day by Day. Things that I haven't even told anyone. And I do mean anyone. I don't even know why I'm writing this but I think it's time that I share more, it's time to let people in, completely. That's all.


goodnight to all, and to all a goodnight

We Believe

"While the men's basketball team at George Mason University has effectively transformed itself, the campus and the surrounding areas of Northern Virginia into the most beautiful of 'Cinderellas', there are those fans that knew her before she made it to the ball. Before she was popular and still loved her when she was scrubbing floors. And while the campus bookstore has been cleaned of anything green or gold and the bandwagon is now bursting at the seams, there are those fans who feel like Andy Dufrane in the movie "The Shawshank Redemption" - that the crawl through hundreds of yards of, well you know, was worth it...
This is for the Mason fans who believe, that have always believed and will continue to believe when the bandwagon unloads, when the papers stop giving the ink, and when the ride - however long it can continue - comes to a close."



Let's Go Mason. Their fans think their players are supermen, but our Fans KNOW that we are kryptonite.

LIARS and Snitches get crutches and stiches....

This week has been a little bittersweet. It's cool that we are going to the final four and honestly NOTHING can bring me down from that because I am so excited, even though I don't get to go to the game. And then Wednesday comes, and usually things that would normally make me a little upset just really make me laugh because, I don't know, it's just funny now. But don't bring things up that you don't want to hear the answer to. You're just not gonna like everyone you come across in life. PERIOD. Face it, deal with it and move on from it.


goodnight.

Being Spanish and Hispanic are not the Same thing

Well I haven't updated in awhile and I would say that I haven't done it because I was busy, but that would probably be a lie. Anwhoo, My update for now will be short and sweet... I can't wait for the basketball game tomorrow, I am so excited for our team, and elated that they are finally getting the recognition that they deserve. I have been overwhelmed with emotion. On another note, I hate my living situation right now. I really cannot comprehend how some people have been raised. I mean did we not all learn at least how to pick up after ourselves and respect other's belongings? Guess not. I cannot even begin to describe my frustration to anyone over this. The audacity is mind-blowing. And I have gotten to the point where I am done being nice and I am even done being cordial. All of that has been thrown out the window. But I am tired and falling asleep as I sit here, but i'm glad I have 2 good roomates at least, people that I can talk to, who feel my pain and people I can laugh with.



Ican'tworklikedat.



vinci aka val