Dear Love....

One of my favorite songs by one of my favorite artists. A song written to the emotion of Love.

Love, so many people use your name in vain.
Love, but those who have faith in you sometimes go astray.
Love, through all the ups and downs and joys and hurts.
Love, for better or worse I still will choose you first.


goodnight.

Kalimera

This is probably the best video I have ever seen for 2 reasons:

1. It makes me laugh. (Uh maybe I am on diet)
2. Frappes are good.


If you dont have a mixer though I have learned you can use a bottle, maybe a water bottle of some kind and mix the water, nescafe, and sugar in the bottle and shake it. Works I swear. Very Foamy. Enjoy. It makes me want one right now. Thelo ena kafe =)



ok goodnight. Yassas

The Selfish Giant

People are selfish. That's pretty much a known fact. Most of the world's population is completey and utterly selfish. They don't care how their actions affect the ones around them. Sometimes not even the people who you think are your friends. You want to think that if they knew the situation you were in, then they would act differently. Well if you thought that, then you would be wrong. Because like I said, people are selfish. They are in it for no one else but themselves. Sometimes you don't even know the people that your action affects, amd sometimes you know them well and do it anyway. Those are the kind, the kind that blatantly disregard others' feelings, those are the ones to cut out of your life. Those are the ones who only listen to you when it's convenient for them. Or those are the ones who would rather sit on their ass all summer instead of getting a job and keeping a promise. There are too many good people out there to let people like that waste your time. My parents used to call them "Fair weather friends". And you would think that I would be used to them, and able to spot them from a mile away after growing up in the town I did. But that never happens. Because those people will sneak up on you and disappoint or hurt you everytime. EVERYTIME. So there it is. Take it or leave it. Do with it what you may. But heed my warning. Put it in your pocket and learn from my mistakes.

Chuckles

Oh this commercial makes me laugh...




night night.

Oh I forgot...

On a good note... I have a new favorite show. It's called the Black Donnellys on NBC. Love it. Here is a little taste.




You probably would've never guessed that I liked this show. But I really do. Enjoy.

Simplicity

Why can't anything be simple? If a professor would ask me this question in class I would surely have a quick response for them and I would boldly raise my hand in the air and say "Nothing is ever simple because some people are irresponsible and only think about themselves". And then Im sure the teacher would look at me like I have some issues, but oh well who doesn't? But my statement would still be true nonetheless. Life would be a lot simpler if maybe other people thought about how their actions (or inaction) affect the people around them. I could be way off the mark here, but I don't think so. I mean think about it. For example, A girl gets a boyfriend and all of a sudden her priorities change and the relationships she used to have with her friends suffer because she is unaware of how her actions (or inactions) are affecting those closest to her. Therefore, the relationship becomes Comlicated, and no longer a simple friendship, because she chose to be absent. I mean I guess you could apply the idea to a different metaphor. Like if you're driving your car and you forget or maybe don't see the red light and you don't stop. SCREECH.BANG. You've crashed into the car in the intersection and then you are no longer simply driving, but because of your irresponsibility, God knows you've complicated the situation in so many ways. And then everyone else is left with the stress caused by your mistake. And yes I hear you out there... people make mistakes. But when you consciously make them, that is where the problem lies my friend. That is where the problem lurks. Irresponsibility is dangerous. it could break someone's bones, break someone's spirit, or leave them to live in an apartment alone.

Theme

Lord lift me over the hurt and pain
Deliver me from the rain
See I don't wanna stress over stress no more
I don't wanna struggle no more

Rather be here...

Arts and Crafts

I should do more arts and crafts. Crafts make me happy. Or are they just a happy distraction? I don't think I really care. I guess you could say that art and creativity have always made me feel better. When I was little that was probably the one thing that could make me almost forget what was going on around me. I took art classes for awhile, and my teachers always told me that I showed great promise. But then I stopped. I don't even remember why. Maybe I felt like I grew out of it, or maybe I just got too busy doing other things. I don't really remember. Anyways, I don't really know what my point was. I guess it's just that I miss it now. And i want to try to incorporate that in my life again. How you ask? I don't know. Like the other day when my roommates and I made valentines, and painted them and what not - it was great. Just little things like that. Maybe it will save my sanity. I doubt it though, but one can only hope =)

Smile

Oh does this bring back memories... I love this movie and it sure brightened up my day

I don't know...

I guess I don't really know where to begin because I don't know exactly how I feel right now. I've had people tell me that I am in the middle of a very destructive relationship and honestly sometimes I really agree. But my question is how do just walk away from something that has been a habit for so long? Something that was always there when you could count on it. I miss that support system. Now i just feel like I'm not good enough. Like I was just a stepping stone until something better came along.
But i feel like it's more than that. All of a sudden they've met someone new and now they are a different person. A person who deliberately hides things from me. Why? Because they are ashamed and know that this is not really their personality, or maybe because they know I will see right through it? I don't know.
ANd then I think maybe I'm being put on the back burner or sacrificed beacause in the end, I will be the one still standing there. But that still doesn't change the fact that I am sad or that I am very lonely. I don't think anyone sees that when they look at me, because I try so hard to hide it. So hard. And the one person I thought I could talk to, I can't. I just can't. Or the one person who I thought it would matter to. It doesn't. At least not now. It's like that saying, how does it go? If you let something go and then it comes back, then it was meant to be? I don't know if I'm strong enough for that. But i don't know if I'm strong enough for this either.
So again I sit here alone and it goes unnoticed. Maybe I should just get used to it.

What?

Ok so is it weird that there is something that I wrote in 6th grade posted on the internet? Without my knowledge mind you. Way weird... right? Yes I think so. You know when you are bored and you google search yourself just to see what comes up? Ok maybe it's just me, but you should do it because you might just find something interesting. Like a story about christmas that you wrote a billion years ago. And I think it's so funny to read it now and be able to see how I was trying to be all smart sounding, and using all these descriptive words. Too funny.

go to this link and my story is on the bottom.... try not to laugh too loud


http://www.ncsu.edu/midlink/holidays/stories.html


I'm ready for our big disappointing loss on ESPN tomorrow... are you?
k buh bye for now.

Say it Right

In the day
In the night
Say it right
Say it all
You either got it
Or you don't
You either stand or you fall
When your will is broken
When it slips from your hand
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

Oh you don't mean nothing at all to me
No you don't mean nothing at all to me
But you got what it takes to set me free
Oh you could mean everything to me

The Catch

Today was a very happy day..... My classes were good, TL decided that she wants to move in together next year and mmy favorite episode (well one of them) of Sex and the City was on TV tonight... A great way to end the day. So I have posted the end of the episode for all of you out there to enjoy just as much as I do.... And can I say my favorite part is when Miranda gets hit in the head with the bouquet and then Carrie says "Now you're done." Makes me chuckle everytime. So play the first video and the then part 2 is the one under it. K?




and then part 2....





I love it. My favorite show.

Whatev

You Are 44% Girly

You're a little girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie. You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines.

How Girly Are You?

Took this here quiz
True or not...
I don't know. But a good chuckle.

Bad Education

My new favorite band... awesome, no drummer just a girl who tap dances. And they are from Omaha.. too great.

Let Me Cry

So many things to say, but never the right words or enough energy.


What to do, what to do.


I'm just going to let it simmer for a little until I can get my thoughts straight.




She sits alone by a lamppost
Trying to find a thought thats escaped her mind
She says dads the one I love the most
But Stipes' not far behind

She never lets me in
Only tell me wheres shes been
When shes had too much to drink
I say that I dont care I just run my hands
Through her dark hair and then I pray to God
You gotta help me fly away

And just...
Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

This morning I woke up alone
Found a note sitting by the phone
Saying maybe, maybe I'll be back some day
I wanted to look for you
You walked in I didnt know just what I should do
So I sat back down and had a beer and felt sorry for
Myself.

Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

Last night I tried to leave
Cried so much I just
Could not believe
She was the same girl I
Fell in love with long ago
She went in the back to
Get high
I sat down on my couch
And cried
Yelling oh mama please
Help me
Wont you hold my hand.

And
Let her cry...if the tears fall down like rain
Let her sing...if it eases all her pain
Let her go...let her walk right out on me
And if the sun comes up tomorrow
Let her be...let her be.

History lesson

What do you do when someone you've known seems to change overnight? Someone you thought you knew so well, just all of a sudden, is different. You think maybe you're the one who is going in the opposite or wrong direction. But I don't think so. I think I've made positive changes, for the most part, as opposed to negative downhill spirals. But what if this person is harming themselves, or completely not acting like themself. (Or at least the self you know to be the true self) Is that a call for us to step in, take a risk and confront it? Because I feel like most of the time, that approach only has 2 outcomes: Bad and Worse. Or is it a matter of how important the relationship is to you? Is it worth the risk? Nobody knows. I know I don't. But sometimes it scares me. Like if I wait too long then something bad will happen, or it will get so out of control, and then I am helpless. Just like when I was little. History repeats itself.

Sometimes I feel like people don't take seriously why I've made the choices I have made in my life. They don't get the urgency or the relevance. It could be because they don't know the whole story. But that's my fault. Or maybe it's because they don't ask, or they don't care to know.

Untitled

I don't know why but lately I have been really sad. I can't really put my finger on it, but it's kind of like I feel like something is missing. And it's so strange because all my life I have been telling myself what I do and do not need and now it's like all that has changed. Is it because I am getting older? Or is it because I am feeling left out? I don't know. Maybe it's because I feel like it's almost there, but not quite. Like it's in my grasp and all I have to do is take and hold it, but I'm too afraid that I will drop it and lose it. Or maybe I'm not seeing what's really there.
I think my confidence level and outside appearence has a lot to do with it. I can't remember the last time I felt comfortable in my own skin. Which ultimmately is my fault. And it's like I don't care enough about myself to change. Like I'm not even worth the effort.
I need a break. I need a break from everything. Why can't life be easy? Instead it's complicated, ridiculous and exhausting.

Sometimes I wish I could just move away and start over.

Boring

My life is boring. I don't even know why I have a blog anymore. I rarely have anything to say and no one even reads it.

But can I just point out that tonight I watched Deal or No Deal for the first time, and before I really didn't get it. And i felt really bad about myself because I felt like if my 7 year old nephew could understand it and like it, then what was my deal? But i get it now, it was like I was watching it and then I had one of those "Debbie Goddin" moments. (you know like it hits you all of a sudden) And then I realized what greg was talking about when he said it was his new favorite show, because I couldn't stop watching it and I was so into it. I was sitting in my room all by myself saying "No deal!" And then I thought to myself... This is sad, this is way sad. I felt like an 80 year old grandma eating her chicken salad sandwich and watching Deal or No Deal. But i love all those game shows, such as jeoperdy, wheel of fortune, family feud and now you can go ahead and add Deal or No freakin deal to the list. I am old. I might as well be shuffling around the apartment in a moo-moo looking for my teeth.

What is wrong with me?

goodnight all.